Right
First off, I’d like to start this lovely blog entry by saying that I have no idea where I’m going with this so I’m just gonna go.
Second, I’m very very tired so I’m in babble mode and not the most intelligent.
Three, putting waterproof liquid eyeliner on you waterline is not a good idea because it doesn’t work, it itches/tickles and it burns.
Four, the television show Community is freakin’ hilarious. I love it. The show I love even more is Glee! I now officially hate the baseball world series because Glee hasn’t been on for about two weeks and I sincerely miss it.(By the way I love how in Community the college has dorms. I’ve never heard of a community college having dorms. Mine certainly doesn’t.)
Five. Why the hell is this in a list format?!
Six, November 20th is the day to sign up for classes and I can’t decide whether or not I want to take Biology 211 with Tara or American Sign Language. Seriously I can’t decide. I can’t take them both at the same time because biology is early Tuesday and Thursday mornings at Rock Creek and sign language is late Monday or Wednesday nights. Also, I don’t think I can handle taking 3 really hard classes (Math 111, Biology 211, and ASL 101) at the same time. Plus, if I’m accepted into the MLT program after this program than it’s unnecessary for me to take biology 211, but it’s a class I would LOVE to take with Tara. But, I would love to take ASL because I’ve been wanting to learn the language for quite a while and winter and spring quarter would be the opportune time, especially if I get into the MLT program that starts next quarter.
Oh god don’t get me freakin’ thinking about what would happen if I didn’t get into the MLT program. IT’S SOMETHING I’M DEFINITELY not THINKING ABOUT.
{I ♥ caps}
[Seventh, holy crap! I can't believe how loud my local high school's band is! And the screaming fans! They must be having homecoming?]
“I have to tell you.”
*pause*
“My appendix is bursting.”
“What?”
“Yeah. Yeah. My appendix is bursting!”
*Fake screams*
lolz
Shit so this entry is getting ridiculous so I’m going to go to sleep.
Great Day
Today was a great day.
1. The 32 got to MTC in time for me to catch the next 33.
2. The 44 was early ( actually probably late) so I got to school even earlier than usual
3. I didn’t completely bomb my piano quiz and I got out of class early
4. I got my financial aid check from the business office a lot faster than I thought I would and it was a plenty of money
5. I got out of math early which was good because I seemed to be just as tired as Barry was
6. The woman I used to talk to on the 32 bus @ 7:15 was on the 32 that I got on at MTC. We exchanged lots of smiles and lovely greetings. I was SOOO happy to see her. I missed her.
7. A woman asked me what brand of shoes I was wearing were and complimented them. I told her the brand and thanked her.
8. The bus driver was an awesome one. I generously thanked him when I got off the bus.
9. Glee and Law and Order: Special Victims Unit are on tonight. They are my two favorite shows so I’m very excited to watch them.
10. I have the day off tomorrow so I’ll get to sleep in which is very awesome.
Yeah so it was a good day today, but I’m glad it’s almost over. I’m going to go eat dinner now and not fall asleep before Glee comes on.
Dreaming
Lately my dreams have been very vivid. They have been both good and bad. The good ones hurt just as much as the bad because the good ones leave me sad which make me wish they were real. Those dreams make me wonder what would have happened if things had been different. Not just in my life, but in theirs too. No matter which type of dream I wish that I could have one night where I don’t dream at all.
Last night I had a dream that there was a family with a mom, a dad and a young son that lived in an apartment complex. Their neighbors an older couple told them that somethign was going on and that they should leave. They all left togther to leave this mysterious trouble that loomed. But the mother was concerned that they hadn’t fed the family’s cat so they went back to their apartment at dusk. The young boy went in. The father was concerned that there was a serial killer in the house so he quickly went in the apartment after him. The mother followed. The boy showed them that the cat had been fed, but the father was concerned that a serial killer was looming around every dark corner in the apartment. He kept expecting to see him each time he turned a corner. As they were leaving the apartment the family decided to leave some lights on so it wouldn’t look like there was nobody home. When they walked into the parking lot their two neighbors were standing in it eating ice cream cones. They all got in the car and as they were driving around the apartment building a man wearing a black hooded cap with a mask holding two knives looming at their car. Someone in the car yelled “Go go go!” The mother who was driving drove faster and they all couldn’t believe they got past the serial killer in one piece.
I woke up after I had this dream and i didn’t go back to sleep for a couple of hours. Once i did fall asleep I had another dream.
In this dream I was in the lobby of a building that i had never been to in either real live or my dream. A group of people stood in the lobby and they all introduced themselves and told me their occupations. They somehow convinced me that I needed to shoot and kill some people. For some reason I believed them so I killed the people they told me to and left. Later that day I was at school, a school that reminded me of the Sylvania campus. I realized as I was leaving school that I had imagined the group of people that had told me to kill the people I killed. I realized that I was probably going to go to jail for a very long time, but I could probably plea guilty due to reason of mental defect. A realization that reassured me.
Those weren’t all of my dreams last night, but those were the two that were the worst and most interesting. Hopefully I’ll sleep better tonight without any deaths in my dreams.
Watching
There’s something I don’t think I have ever told anyone. Maybe.
I’m somebody who gets paranoid. I get paranoid about people watching me. Watching me through windows that have no blinds, through hidded cameras, listening to me through open windows, hiding in places where I wouldn’t be able to find them.
My house has (…uh what are they called..windows in the ceiling…it’s late, I’m tired..yeah we are just going to go with) windows in the ceiling in the bathrooms which doesn’t help with my paranoid tendencies.
I’m more likely to be paranoid about being watched at night then during the day.
I’ve been kinda depressed lately and I don’t know why.
It’s finally summer! which does make me happy. I finally get a brake from school.
There should be more on tv besides infomercials at night because I want to watch tv.
This month has gone by really fast, for the most part I really don’t appreciate that. School starts in 24 days. I’m not ready, but I’m sure I will be by then. I have only been done for about 10 days.
I’m really tired, I don’t know why i started writing all of this.
LaWlz x2i
I had things to talk about, but I suddenly lost them. Fuck!
So I’ve been trying to convince myself that I want to do something, particularly my homework, but so far that hasn’t happened. I’ve gotten as far as having my math book in my lap which is probably as far as I’ll get.
I’ve been sleeping a lot lately which means I’ve been having lots of dreams. Before my mom woke me up this morning by calling me, I was dreaming about how I was involved in a very intricate burglary scheme where each of us was in charge of a thing that the group needed. i was in charge of food so i crashed my car into a semi truck that was full of bacon so I could steal the bacon. there was a detective interviewing me because she knew I was part of this intricate scheme and she had the biggest eyes ever! my friend jeannine was in the dream and she had a twin…which was weird.
This summer I’m taking writing 122 online and math 95. The writing class is going well, but the math class not so much. I have failed two tests and I’m pretty sure I’m going to fail the class.Yeah so I suck. Oh well. I can just retake the class.
Now the cat is on my lap instead of the book so i guess I went backwards.
So I just dropped the psychology class I was signed up for and added a piano class which I’m 2nd on the waitlist for. Also, I’m 5th on the waitlist for math 95. Yeah I signed up for it since I know I’m going to fail it.
oh yeah so i changed my mind about what I want to do AGAIN. I want to become a lab technician which requires a associate’s degree. Kinda feels like a cop out but whatever. Hopefully I will be happy and enjoy it. I’m supposed to apply for the program after fall quarter, hopefully I’ll get in. If I don’t I don’t know what I’m going to do.
I’m tired of blabbering so I’m going to go now.
Toniggghhhtttt….or tomorrow..or yesterday…or lastmondayfromsundaytuesday
I’m all for the lawlz.
Lawlz at spam commentz:
“Hi, good post. I have been pondering this issue,so thanks for writing. I’ll certainly be subscribing to your blog. Keep up the good posts”
It was posted on the entry titled “Police Bus.” The person has some sort of diet blog. WTF? What issue are they pondering?
Lawlz at the bus driver today.
Here’s pretty much how it went as I was waiting for the driver to pull up to the bus stop:
Driver: “Take it easy.”
Me. “What?” (I didn’t hear him.)
Driver: “Take it easy. Or hard whatever you like.”
Me: (WTF??) *smilez*”……..”
Driver: “Have a nice day. Thank you.”
Me: “You too. Thank you!”
While I was walking home I kept randomly cracking up because it was hilarious, it totally made me go wtf???
Not so Lawlzing- asshole bus driver on the 31 bus. I can’t wait to get my bus pass so that shit won’t have to happen for awhile.
Another lawlz at the t.v, show Glee. I freakin’ love the show!!! I’ve watched the pilot like 5 times now. I can’t wait until it starts in the fall. It’s amazing, I <3 it.
FYI I also <3 gelato. 
I just ate some it was amazingly intense.
Lawlz at Tara saying in lab on Thursday that sex isn’t fun at a guy that was starting to fall asleep. “Sex is not fun!Right ____?” (whatever is name is)
I’m feeling pretty freakin’ spaztick.
So Tara emailed me my paper and she somehow sent it to my personal email account, I don’t know how it happened and now it’s driving me insane because I REALLY want to know how she got my email. I’m thinking she might have gotten it from my facebook….but I don’t know. I don’t remember ever giving it to her.
Lady on the Bus has totally abandoned me! I was gone two days and now she has started riding her bike to work! She was on the bus today and she didn’t even sit next to me! I feel very sadz :,(
I went to the Gorge last Saturday with my brother, Daniel, my mom, my grandma, and my stepdad. It was pretty entertaining, especially since my grandma and my stepdad don’t interact much. We went to the Vista house at Crown Point, Charburger (blech!), and Multnomah falls. I <3 the Gorge, it’s so beautiful. Now I just need to make a trip to the beach because it has been too long.
On Friday I’m going to NCA’s graduation. I’m so excited! I get to see all of my old friends graduate and Mrs. Manning and maybe Stephanie. SO excited!!!!!!!
Tomorrow I’m going to donate blood at Sylvania and write my Genetic Paper for Biology and go to the Peaches concert. Yep pretty awesome.
Okayz I’m done writing now because it’s time for my one of my favorite tv shows Medium
change
Do you want to hear something that isn’t suprising?
I CHANGED MY MIND!
Yeah, no surprise. I’m not very good at making up my mind, but I’m good at changing it.
Now, I’ve decided I want to be a biology major and either go to OSUor U of O, preferably U of O since they seem to have a better biology program.
Right now, I wouldn’t mind becoming a researcher, but I’m sure I’ll change my mind at some point about that too. I like the biology major because it lets you explore the different disciplines of biology.
If I do decide to become a researcher, I think there might still be the possibility of working at OHSU, but I have no idea.Right now though I don’t really care.
Do you want to know what’s even better than me changing my major?
MY BIRTHDAY!
Which is tomorrow.
I’m very excited since I’ll be turning 18.
Pretty awesome!
Do you want to know what’s kind of scary?
I might be going to Driver’s Ed and getting my driver’s license. Snap! You bet that’s scary.
Yeah btw this summer is going to blow. Lol, my schedule sucks.
So I’m writing all of this to avoid doing my biology lab about mRNA codons and DNA base triplets something which I don’t understand right now.
I guess I could get back to it…….*sighz*
all wrong
I’m not a failure, I just suck.
Poor Rosalin Frank, no matter what I still don’t think she got the credit she deserved in the discovery of DNA structure. I wonder what would have happened if she had been alive when Watson, Crick, and Franklin received their nobel peaces prizes, would she have gotten one too? Gah so much injustice in everything.
I have a test tomorrow in biolog, I haven’t studied enough, but I’m determined
This weekend is a four day weekend this weekend since it’s Memorial Day on Monday.
My birthday is next Wednesday, I’m pretty excited! I’m turning 18, which is a pretty big milestone. In the eyes of society I’ll finally be considered an adult and for now that’s a great thing.
Hahah I love colleghumor they are hilarious, their videos are the best.
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Seriously this scientific paper makes me want to kill myself. The fact that I can’t write it makes me feel like such a failure. It has depressed me so much.
Which is why I want to drop the class.
Even though it would be a loss on many levels, I think the benefits to my mental health out weight the others.
Losses:
I love the class, except for the stupid paper.
$350, that I’m sure financial aid would make me pay to them.
5 credits.
I like my teacher.
Gains:
I would have a lot more time to spend on my other class work, that I seem to slack on, especially when it comes to sociology.
I could drop microbiology summer quarter and start exploring my other options.
My mental health would be a bit better. I think. I’m not sure if Iwould feel more or the same depressed because I dropped the class because I failed at a part of it.
Fuck. It’s late I need to go to sleep.
